Currently I'm sat here feeling sick with anxiety and i have no friggin clue why?
I'm tired and i have work in a couple of hours.
And for the love of god I've lost all inspiration to be creative, so that just makes me want to scream myself into a heap, as being creative appears to be my only thing i have left at this point to keep me sane.
Well I have had some inspiration but I'm pretty sure everyone is sick of reading meaningless poetry about jealousy or 'Love'.
Ahh 'Love' Just the word at the moment makes me want to scream! As so many people seem to be falling in and out of 'Love' at the age of 18 or 19 most of my 'friends' (Yes i use that term loosely) Either seem to be engagaed or pregnant(Yeah okay I'm kind of hypocrytical there as well because I was one of those stupid naive fools who was engaged). I mean for the love of god use your heads people.
Then again I suppose it's 'Love' yet again.Everyone has the need or the want to be loved (Yes I was foolish and was one of them but my perspective appears to be changing as the one thing I craved most looks like the thing that's futherest away.)Yeah everyone wants to be loved but most of the time cannot see that it is not always love that they have grasped but lust.Some don't even take the time to think about it I suppose.
Ohh look see people were correct, I have turned my opinion around because a year ago I would have fought tooth and nail to say I was in love, bullshit.Even people who have reached the age of 35 still haven't quite figured that concept and yet 17 I thought I had.
See they were correct they said I turn into this.Ohh well be right for once...